(You are a helper)

I received a message from my good friend telling me that someone is asking her for a lady whom he can befriend on a serious level, and I came to her mind. And guess what my mind was doing; misbehaving. A day before today I had resolved to become a different person. Actually I was walking on that path steadily, but this message from my friend sent my mind into a shock. Instead of my mind concentrating on my initial plan of “Becoming the New Me”, it fell into the disorder of remaining as the old self.

Guess what my mind suggested; “Change your WhatsApp display picture to your own picture, start reading relationship books.” I mean what is all this disorder? I had chosen a new path, and I was actually enjoying the adventure it was bringing; unknown path but worth the adventure, and now my mind wants to leave me for my old self?

My mind is forgetting that we don’t know this person yet; we may not like him, he may not be on the same page with us. Yet, with all these uncertainties, my mind wants to go into neediness. HELL NO! I have been there and back; it was hell, and I am not going there again.

Besides, even if something happens between us two like what my mind is projecting, wouldn’t I become a helper? And as a helper, what or where are my tools? Who is my role model?  We are all know that the world renowned Helper is the Holy Spirit. How is my intimacy or ‘apprenticeship’ with the Holy Spirit? There is so much to learn, and yet my mind wants to project the unknown. No wonder it is of the flesh. Because all this while, my spirit was calm, but my mind was raging.

Well, guess what? I am not going back to my needy self, which eventually become pathetic and pitiful. But I am going to stick to my initial plan as if I never received this message from my friend so that I can become the woman I want to be.

Besides, I noticed that reading a lot of relationship books confuses my thinking; I am not able to be myself fully without looking back on some of the notes I have gathered from those books. I am not saying those books are bad, but I want to become ‘a Holy Spirit’(Helper, Counselor, Advocate, Friend, and a Standby) in every relationship I find myself in. Therefore, I am going to develop my intimacy with the Holy Spirit before I think of developing any intimacy with man: the better my intimacy with the Holy Spirit, the better my intimacy with man will be; it would be rich.

It should be noted also that, without God, I can do nothing, not even being a girlfriend. However, if I develop an intimate relationship with the Holy Spirit, not only will I enjoy heavenly bliss, but also, I would be walking satisfactorily and fulfilling in my purpose, even with or without a marriage. This is the right thing to do, and that is what I am going to do.

Amen.